You: Am I in a toxic relationship?
Job: With who?
You: With you… you are giving toxic.
Job: How? Explain.
You: When I was leaving the university, this wasn't the you I imagined.
Job: Ah 😢
You: You used to give me goosebumps but now it's giving "what I ordered vs what I got."
Job: (Scratches head) So what did you imagine?
You: By now, assets, a robust savings... just being further along.
Job: And what did you get?
You: Forget it… It's a whole lot. Where do I even begin?
Job: I insist, it involves me… I need to know.
You: Every quarter they raise your KPIs, even when I barely reached the last one.
Job: Yes, they do this.
You: But they don't raise my salary every quarter.
Job: (Whispers in shame) That's even if they do it yearly.
You: And even when they do, the economy would have caught up with the little adjustment and it's like we are back to the beginning.
Job: Wow, I never saw it that way.
You: I work… I swear I do… but why do I have to play politics to prove I'm worthy of you?
Job: To what end?
You: To have my work heard in rooms I cannot enter 🤦
Job: True
You: Now I haven't taken leave this year.
Job: Why? I allow you to.
You: Every time I think about it, I feel like I'm doing something wrong.
Job: You're not doing anything wrong.
You: Then why does it feel that way?
Job: Wow.
You: And even when I do take leave, I spend the same number of days clearing backlogs. The rest is never really rest.
Job: Hmm… true.
You: I have all these things going on, yet I still have to take care of myself to take care of you.
